I was about 24 when I got married. From the beginning, he yelled at me and pushed me around. I attended church and believed that once you got married, you stayed married, so I just kept letting him do it. Then one summer, after being married almost seven years, he held me down and was not going to let me leave for work. I finally got away and, after letting my job know what had happened, checked into a shelter for abused women. I still fell guilty, thinking maybe that is not abuse, that is as far as it would go, or maybe I should have stayed and tried to work it out. I went back once but after realizing he would not change, I have gone on with my life. He did let me leave with one of the cars, the one that was broke, but then had it repassed. I now have my own car and my own life. I am a full-time college student, I want to be a teacher, and found this website while during research for an English paper. I have a life without him and all the things we had together.
I HAVE SURVIVED!
Thank you for sharing your powerful story. It takes immense courage to leave a difficult and abusive situation, and it's clear you've made significant strides in rebuilding your life and pursuing your dreams. The feelings of guilt and doubt you've experienced are common among survivors of abuse, but recognizing your own strength and resilience is crucial. You've shown remarkable bravery and determination, and your journey is truly inspiring.
If you're ever in need of support or someone to talk to, reaching out to trusted friends, counselors, or support groups can be very beneficial. Remember, you are not alone, and many resources and communities understand and can offer the help and support you might need.
As you continue on your path to becoming a teacher and enriching your life, hold onto that strength and hope. Your story is one of survival and empowerment, and it’s a testament to your resilience and resolve to create a positive future for yourself. Keep pushing forward, and never hesitate to seek help whenever you need it.